Fear

The problem with ADD is that sometimes, one begins to obsess over one’s fears.

I’ve never been good at getting homework done on vacations, or even just when I stay overnight nannying. This has, of course, turned itself into a fear that I will not be able to get my homework done summer semester, now that I am living in a real house, with other people.

I have worked very hard to set up a usable desk area as my first priority, and I will be on campus for a few hours in between classes, as well, so I think, with some focus and concentration, I should be able to focus and make this work.

But transitions are hard, and fear is harder.

About that College Thing

As of yesterday, around noon, I am done with my undergraduate college work. Noon, because that is when I met with my internship professor. When did I finish my paper and portfolio to give her? 11AM, as I packed up the two kids I was nannying who I needed to bring with me to the meeting. Some things never change.

Do I think that I would have done better in college if I had my ADD under better control? Yes. Am I learning to let go of things that are in the past and can’t be changed? Yes, finally. So it is over, and It is what it is. I do plan on continuing to do little featurettes on strategies that did work for me and strategies that did not. I know, I know, I’m promising an awful lot here. I have the best of intentions, I swear

Do not fear, though, there is more ADD ranting about college to come. Next Tuesday I start my Masters in Education Program. Two classes this summer, then fieldwork throughout the school year. After that, Y’all get to hear the excitement that is trying to deal with one’s ADD as a teacher. At least I will always have material to write about.

Now, to sleep, as I have to move tomorrow. In typical ADD fashion, nothing is in boxes, everything is a mess, and I didn’t do any of the pre-organization I hoped to do.

Frustrated

It is the time during the semester when I usually get horribly overwhelmed.

I’ve made summer plans, know what I’m doing, and just want it to be here now. I’m sure all of you with ADD know what I am talking about, once you decide to do something, you want to do it RIGHT NOW

Instead, I have papers to write, projects to do, and homework to catch up on. I have so much to do, and all I want to do is pack my things and have it be summer now.